I had come to terms that I am a very angsty art person. I appreciate doing hurting art, I like reading sad fanfictions. So, sometimes I can draw a happy or romantic fanart, but most of times I'll be drawing angsty things. It's my way of express myself.
I'm not a sad person, though. I have happy and sad moments; I feel rage and I feel joy... as long as I'm feeling something, I have the willing to live. So, when I'm numb, the easier way to make me feel again is drawing sad things.
If I am sad, I can become happy.
If I am numb, I am as good as dead.